K.B.Fante

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  1. Your story follows a very common theme here, as has been pointed out by above members of this site. I too had symptoms of HPPD from the time I was about 15 until 20. I did a lot of drugs in high school and at some point ended up with visual snow, depersonalization and slight afterimages, all of which are standard HPPD symptoms. After I graduated high school I actually took it easy on drugs my freshman year of college and within a few years I was symptom free. I took a few hallucinogens here and there but was always careful in never taking too much. Well, six years later all it took was a single tab of acid and I was thrown into a world and experience I wouldn't wish on anybody ever in the history of man. It's really clear that you're in a position we all were at one time and ignored. Don't be like us and ignore what your brain is telling you. Drugs don't work for you and your body type. If you keep doing them you'll regret it -- guaranteed. And not only that, you'll regret ever being born. Life on this planet is the greatest gift imaginable. Don't take it for granted. Doing drugs isn't worth it.
  2. Usually HPPD is accompanied by a variety of visual disturbances so if you're just feeling cut off from the outside world, emotionally drained, empty, etc., then you might just be feeling the effects of all the drugs you've been taking. You should really try and cut back, even go as clean as you can for a month or so and see how you feel after that. If you're already feeling depersonalized I'd stay as far away from drugs as possible if I were you, especially hallucinogens. Your mind and body are telling you to lay off. It's best to listen in these circumstances.
  3. I've tried tyrosine, rhodiola and theanine, which I've read can increase dopamine, but this was a while back when I was throwing all sorts of different drugs at my body so I didn't get a good idea of whether they worked or not. Also, I think SAM-e might increase dopamine. That was the one med I actually felt pretty good on. I've just been so sensitive to drugs I haven't stuck with any aside from supplements. I'm much happier with going slow and recovering using nutrition.
  4. I wish someone had told me how long this would take right off the bat, so I'll just advise you to not get too excited about it dissipating over the next month. The truth is if you've had it for seven months you'll probably have it for a long time. Maybe another year, maybe two or three, who knows. But this condition doesn't disappear overnight. Just stay away from drugs, eat healthy, exercise and you give yourself a great chance at recovery.
  5. Hate to keep repeating it but this is yet another instance where HPPD and Visual Snow symptoms are tied to some sort of injury. This is without question a reoccurring theme in many of these studies. I've always felt better on substances that promote dopamine and it seems pretty popular in this community. If I remember correctly I think Dr. Abraham even suggested dopamine receptors could somehow get destroyed after ingestion of hallucinogens. I've taken a few supplements that supposedly boost dopamine, never any pharmaceuticals, and of course altered my diet to allow for more vitamin C which is an antioxidant especially beneficial to those with neurological disorders and one that helps promote the production of dopamine. Sometimes when I eat an orange I even get a little bit of a natural food high!
  6. Honestly, I'm not sure what to tell you. It sounds like you have a severe form of HPPD (I had similar symptoms as you for the first few months before they started to fade) wherein CEVs are your strongest and most disturbing symptom except they occur when you're awake, from what I gather. You have to keep in mind that though there's a general list of common HPPD symptoms almost everyone has a different experience with this condition and many of us have symptoms that seem almost unique to our own personal brain malfunction, as appears to be the case in your scenario. For example, I have severe macropsia. Though there have been a few others who've reported this symptom I've yet to come across anybody who has it as bad as I do. I literally couldn't even see my hand (it was too blurry and big) if I put it a foot in front of my face when I first got HPPD because my macropsia was so bad, and to this day my hand appears completely blurry if I put it a few inches from my face. It sounds like you've seen quite a few doctors and been on your fair share of meds, so I'm not exactly sure trying out more medication is the best route. Is there anything that's made your symptoms better? Perhaps a time when you felt happier throughout all this? One thing that's helped me is to constantly take inventory of my emotions, HPPD symptoms and body in general to see what makes me feel better and worse. It's taken two years but I have a long, long list of things that help and things that don't. It really makes life easier to navigate when you know what to do and what not to do, especially with regards to eating.
  7. Here are the links to the visual snow studies mentioned in the video above: 'Visual Snow' -- a disorder distinct from persistent migraine aura https://academic.oup.com/brain/article/137/5/1419/334357/Visual-snow-a-disorder-distinct-from-persistent Visual snow: A thalamocortical dysrhythmia of the visual pathway? http://www.jocn-journal.com/article/S0967-5868(15)00653-0/abstract Thalamocortical dysrhythmia: A neurological and neuropsychiatric syndrome characterized by magnetoencephalography http://www.pnas.org/content/96/26/15222.full Thalamocortical Dysrhythmia: A Theoretical Update in Tinnitus https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4460809/
  8. I've read of a few people trying it, though obviously it didn't work wonders or else it would be more well known around the community. I think choline is often taken in combination if I remember correctly.
  9. Just thought I'd post this video since its apt to the discussion at hand and mentions the site Sara has linked to above:
  10. I have negative afterimages too, but mostly I only see them when I look at bright objects (the sun is the worst) or high-contrast settings (like a black tire against a white wall for example). Thing is, these have gotten better at the same rate as all my other symptoms, so clearly they're all tied together, which would make me think they're more brain related rather than retinal. I know light sensitivity is a common symptom of quite a few neurological disorders.
  11. Thanks for this Sara. I hope people donate. We can't all sit here and complain and then when we have an opportunity to do something just turn our heads the other way.
  12. I always thought it weird how many of the symptoms you experience while tripping are the same ones we end up stuck with after getting HPPD. If you look at the questionnaire scores from that study they're basically a list of HPPD and DP symptoms, and yet they're also supposedly the feelings one gets while high on hallucinogens. Also, I find the graphics in that study showing electrical activity inside the brain while on LSD quite interesting. The occipital lobe seems to be most active and this is also where visual snow hypermetabolism occurs and where some people with DP have shown lesions. As I've mentioned in a few posts, I had a really intense sensation of being sucked to the back of my mind while tripping, and that's also a DP symptom as well (seeing the world from the back of your head). I dunno, just seems like there may be something there...
  13. Sugar does the same to me. It used to give me absolutely horrific brain fog but ever since cleaning up my diet and eliminating excess sugar my brain fog has almost entirely disappeared. I've been eating lots of fruit lately and have noticed my body is not handling it well at all. Though I don't have brain fog anymore I'm really lethargic in the morning after I eat and I almost fall asleep during the day afterwords. Sugar doesn't increase my visual symptoms but what little psychological symptoms I have seem to get exacerbated quite a bit, which is the same thing that happens when I ingest caffeine.
  14. Jay is right on. I was actually thinking about the idea of "pre-HPPD" last night because we were talking about it in the Caffeine thread. In the article Sara links to the doctor mentions if you have visual snow to stay away from drugs. Well, I had visual snow in high school (which I also may have contracted from drugs), but I kept doing drugs and then I got full-blown HPPD and DP. If someone had told me about this I never would have taken acid and never would have gotten to where I am now! So yeah, just don't do drugs ever again and you'll probably be fine. Also, working out, eating healthy and perhaps finding a therapist will help you a lot.
  15. If you have HPPD you'll definitely notice it. If all you have is visual snow consider yourself extremely lucky.