Tooch83

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  1. OK FIRST OFF! I'm sorry this happened to you. A lot of us have these "Halos" and anxiety caused by psychedelics and MDMA. First OFF I hope your have to realize you are done with these drugs. I'm sorry but doing it again can make things a lot worse. I am not a DR. but I'm sorry I don't agree with the PTSD theory. You are unfortunately experiencing HPPD. Do you have PTSD aggravated by the events that happened to you I'm sure. But if you are treated as PTSD exclusively this could be bad. Because (once again not a DR) They will put your on SSRI otherwise known as anti depressants and these could aggravate the symtoms, Ive had the white sparks. That is a sign that something definitately went wrong with synapsis in your brain during your drug experience. Read the other forums and become more acclimated in HPPD. I know what your'e going through but there are things you can do to make these things less severe. There is going to be a lot of trial and error and if you with stain from taking ANYTHING for a wile you MIGHT be let out of this nightmare. I'm sorry to be blunt and probably said things you did not want to hear. Like for example- I'm sorry life is going to be different from now but it's not over. FIGHT THIS. But I do hope you know your done with these drugs. Look up the pharma section under BENZOS ARE OKAY AND SOMETIMES NECESSARY - tooch83 I'm sorry this happened but we are here for you.
  2. I agree with JAY 100% Look up my new post about BENZO USE AND PRECAUTIONS!
  3. BENZO's ARE SOMETIMES NECESSARY AND SOMTIMES NEEDED! First Off if you are taking herbs and other meds that are working for you I'M NOT PROMOTING BENZO'S! I AM NOT SAYING YOU HAVE TO GO ON BENZO'S. Everyday I wish I did not have to take these drugs....but sofar it's the only thing that works for me. I've tried every herbal anxiety med to the point of spending hundreds of dollars at the THE VITAMIN SHOP. AND SORRY SOME OF US CAN'T JUST GO IN TO A DR's office and say I have HPPD give me SINEMET and KEPPRA cause I'm still tripping. GOOD LUCK WITH THAT....Some of us don't have the funds or the insurance or the time to go DR. to DR. trying to tell them what HPPD is. Cause lets face it any illness you know your body better than ANYONE! The Problem with benzos are two things TOLERANCE AND ADDICTION. So when you see a psych that is willing to help you with your HPPD or LETS BE HONEST SOMETIMES YOU HAVE TO STRETCH THE TRUTH. MAYBE LEAVE THE HPPD OUT OF IT AND SAY I had bad incident happen to me and my anxiety is OUT OF CONTROL. Sometimes HPPD throws DR's off and they just see "DRUG SEEKER" So stick with just symtomns. GAD...General Anxiety Disorder...Panic Attacks. RULES FOR AFTER YOU RECEIVE BENZO TREATMENT. 1.) YOU ARE NOT IN CHARGE OF YOUR MEDS! What I mean is these are EXTREMELY habit forming. Pretty Soon you MIGHT not always take it when your HPPD is BAD but not so bad you need another dose. So I advise you to let someone you trust handle them. Parents. Wife. Girlfriend. Someone you that know you and knows when you can have your next dose. 2.) BE HONEST WITH YOURSELF- Do you need one? Or do you want one? And if you can't decide then see rule#1 3.) TOLERANCE- The problem with benzo's is not just addiction but tolerance pretty soon it just doesn't have the same effects that's why you have to deal with either not taking it and seeking coping mecs or herbs with or work a Cognitive therapist. You might have to split your meds in half. Remember be honest with yourself. 4.) Klonopin or Xanax- Let's be honest your gonna want the Xanax or Alprazalam. The problem with this is Xanax is short acting and gives sometimes a euphoric high that is dangerous. Klonopin is longer acting and might as well still be habit forming it's just better of the two. 5.) WEED SMOKERS- Alot of us already know weed is not the same anymore...it increases our HPPD. For those of you that can still smoke and enjoy it (HONESTLY) I congratulate you cause you are VERY RARE AND LUCKY! So with your Benzo medications the anxiety will subside and you might feel like you can smoke again. DON'T! Who ever is prescribing these meds is taking a chance that you will not violate their policies which usually include no illegal drugs. SO EXPECT DRUG TESTS! If you want to figure out how to smoke and take benzo's and beat your drug tests...YOUR ON YOUR OWN! 6.) BENZO AREN'T FOR EVERYONE- Simply sometimes the urge to take more is just to aggravating and your in charge of your meds and your not being honest with yourself and then you have a problem. 7.) THIS WON'T BE EASY- The problem is we want to feel good all the time. For some of us like me our HPPD is 24/7. Somedays your meds won't do what they once did. OR you take them when some trajedy happens and convince yourself you deserve it. NO. You have to take it when your HPPD is getting to the point where you can't take it. Well thats everyday? NO! Someday's are gonna be worse than others cause life moves on and sadly HPPD is not gonna be the only bad thing that happens to you. 8.) ARE BENZO's THE ONLY CURE?- Benzo's are NOT a CURE! They are simply a sometimes necessary MASK and that's all that they are. A good diet and excersize and learning to function in society better takes more than just anxiety meds. I might get a lot of bad responses for the this message but DIFFERENT STROKES FOR DIFFERENT FOLKS.
  4. You will be okay. Tramadol or Ultram is a lab synthetic non narcotic pain medicine that helps binds to your pain receptors without the nasty side effects of other normal narcotics. You will be fine.
  5. Hello everyone! Recently, I got prescribed Klonopin for my intense HPPD anxiety. A lot of people don't agree I should be taking them but sofar they are the ONLY medicine that calms down my HPPD. So sense so many people on this forum think benzo's are a bad idea I want to know what do they take instead. And I already do Yoga, workout, eat right when I can. So I started to take these herbal remedies to help L-THEANINE- Stress Formula- Supposed to calm and relax mood. Valerian Root- Supposed to support relaxation St. John Wort- Supposed to support a positive mood Also RX MEDS Buspirone 15mg 3x's a day Klono- .5 twice a day as needed Seroquel 100mg once at night I asked a few other people on this forum how to enhance my Klonopin with simple remedies and as they should they got very concerned and told me to stop Klonopin all together because it is addictive. I apologize for not explaining my symptoms better. If there were any other drug in the world that would settle down my HPPD symptoms better than Benzo's I would be more than happy to throw down the whole bottle down the toilet. The fact is it's the only type of drugs that help the severe anxiety, minimize floaters, control my DR/DP, and just help me act a little normal and not want to blow my head off everyday.
  6. Hi I live in the Northwest Suburbs of Illinois....about 30-40 minutes away from Chicago. I am on Suboxone....Busbar, Propanol.....
  7. Hello.... They are right and you have to give yourself a break. Everyones makes mistakes and be glad your young and have time to learn how to live with this. One thing I regret when this happened to me was that I never told my parents. They just assumed I was sick with other things and was a bum or addict etc etc..... Then my father died not knowing the truth that I was plagued with halos, afterimages, trails, and intense anxiety from past hallucinogen use. Despite what you think your parents won't kill you....they might be disappointed...but in the end they should/will help you. But You can't get better without forgiving yourself. goodluck
  8. That is very inspiring that some of you can work with this condition. I'm on Buspar and Propanol and feel horrible. I find myself just wanting to stare off into nowhere and forget to blink...It's so messed up. I am a complete mess when I'm not on benzos. thank you for your posts
  9. I should of joined this site 11 years ago but I forced myself to believe that I didn't have HPPD. I was living in denial and was taking a lot of Benzos to function in society. Benzodiazepines are the only medication that work for me. But after a wile I was living life in major fog and denial. Now I am confronting HPPD for the first time and trying to accept the fact that I did this to myself and there is no turning back. I can't focus or concentrate which makes it very difficult to find a job. So my question is what do you do for a living if you have severe HPPD? It seems impossible for me to think of anything that I can possibly do. I know I have a grim outlook and the glass is always half empty and that needs to stop but realistically I have no clue what to do with my life. I am applying for SS for another illness but I have been denied twice and obviously I can't mention I need it because I have HPPD. I'm sorry if there is another topic exactly like this one but I could really use some advice ASAP.
  10. Have you tried Astragalus Membranaceus? A member created a discussion saying this chinese herb cured most HPPD problems....like tracers, floaters, anxiety. We all no there is no cure but I am wondering if more people tried this and experienced relief in their HPPD symptoms. What is the best medicine you tried that helped with concintration? Like right now it's tough to find and type the right words to post. I just want to be able to think clearer and be able to do simple things again.