Jay1

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  1. Same here.... Once I realised they helped me (saved my life, i think), I knew that I needed to do everything I could to make sure I never had to go through withdrawals and stop taking them. As someone who was taking speed and/or mdma everyday for 2 years when i was a teen, it's not in my nature to be so restrained
  2. My neurologist was fine with it, in fact he commended me on my 3 day plan. I have had normal doctors say no though... I just change doctors until I find one that says yes. (in the uk, we have free health care)
  3. Yes, so they are addictive. Heroin isn't addictive if you only take it once a week either. I'm an advocate of beznos a few days a week, but I do that because of their insanely addictive nature. 3 months ago I chanced my luck by going from 3 days on/4 days off to 4 days on/3 days off and, after a month, realised I was getting withdrawals on day 3 of the off days... First time I ever had withdrawals and proof that these pills need constant monitoring and attention. Dosage also plays a big role, due to the large half life. If you take 4mg every other day, you'd soon be addicted. This is my regime now: Lorazepam (2.5mg) - Thursday 6pm Clonazepam (1mg) - Friday 9am Clonazepam (1mg) - Saturday 9am
  4. While I feel your pain and went through a similar thing when I was young, I do have some empathy for them. It is a VERY rare disorder, there is no cure and next to no real research to look through. Better to channel your energy into trying to make people aware of the illness and push for the medical community to do more clinical tests, rather than being resentful because doctors have to take guesses. btw - having no previous addiction history means absolutely nothing about whether benzos are addictive... they are, massively.
  5. Yes, I agree with the above. This is different to hppd, get him to a psychiatrist or neurologist and see what they suggest.
  6. If 4mg doesn;t work, klonopin isn;t for you. 4mg would put me to sleep too.
  7. I'm alot worse when I don't sleep. dp/dr through the roof. HPPD is a messed up disorder. None of us are the same.
  8. I want to word this carefully, as I don;t want to seem like I am trying to minimise the suffering of anyone here with weed induced hppd or milder symptoms. I just have a question that could help calm some of the people that are arriving at the site. Is there anyone here that came to the site with weed induced hppd or milder symptoms from lsd/mdma etc, and are still suffering the same amount after 1) More than 6 months 2) More than a year 3) More than 3 yearrs I get alot of PMs from people who are new to the forum who want to know if people recover and how long it takes. My guess is that alot of people arrive here, get better and leave, so I can;t ask them any questions, unfortunately.... But I can at least flip it the other way and see if there are long term sufferers who got it from weed or had/have milder symptoms. PS - If you do get better, please remember to leave a story in the "Success stories" thread.
  9. I thought i'd start a topic where we can all contribute ways we have made our lives a little better (non medicinal). Get healthy and sober This is the obvious one... quitting drugs, stimulants like coffee, smoking etc.... Then eating healthily and working out really do help alot. Forget the past It is easy to get caught up in a spiral of guilt, anger and jealousy about your current situation. Why did I do drugs? Why did I get hppd? Why are my friends ok? Like all the mistakes and regrets in life... learn from it and move on (not easy, I know). These emotions will just feed the anxiety and hppd. Change your life hppd is at it's worst when we are stressed. It is impossible to avoid all stress, but do what you can to change your lifestyle for the better. If you hate your job, try and change it.... If you hate the city, move out. If your friends don't seem to support you, move on (the real friends will let you back in, when you're ready). These are big, life changing decisions... but hppd doesn't have to stop you making them. Grab your life back hppd can strip you of your ability to do the simplest tasks in life. Retrain yourself to do these tasks. If making eye contact is tripping you out, just slowly do it a little more each day... The more you do it, the more normal it will become. Same goes for all sorts of things... making small talk, going out and about, chatting to someone you are hot for. Your life isn't over This is a key thing to remember. The 1st months and years can be very, very tough... But life goes on. There are numerous people on here that have gone on to have successful educations, careers, relationships and families. hppd is not the end of your life, your dreams or your happiness.
  10. Maybe you did have them before? There is a much, much bigger chance that you had them, but filtered them out of your vision. Drugs and medications have no researched link to floaters. Research them. they are perfectly natural. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Floater Literally all that is happening is you see hppd visuals, starting scanning your vision every day and start noticing totally natural shit in your vision that you would never normally notice. Unfortunately, once you start noticing them, it is hard to stop.
  11. It could be completely unrelated... We live in a very chaotic world that demands questioning. You might just be a smart, empathetic person that needs to try and work out the world you live in. Chances are you would have these thoughts without drugs/hppd. I would try and turn it into a positive.... You are not just some reality tv addicted, media led fool who goes through life with their head in the sand.
  12. I'm kind of torn on this... I agree that a positive mindset is very helpful, and self blame/ self loathing are useless.... But I completely disagree that dp/dr and anxiety are emotional responses and not, at least in some part, neurological. I couldn't care less about my visuals anymore, but dp/dr is hell on earth and no amount of positivity and peace can stop it from being there. It's almost like a physical pain.
  13. I never had a bad trip... I had some very strange trips, but could always stay calm.
  14. floaters are 100% nothing to do with hppd.... zero. I had them when i was 5 years old. The only reason you are noticing floaters more is that you are constantly scanning your visual field looking for symptoms.
  15. Almost certain.... Not certain. The reason I think you will recover is that your symptoms are very mild and, in 10+ years here, I have never seen someone with mild symptoms stay more than a year. They either fully recover or start to ignore the symptoms and carry on with their life as normal.
  16. An alternative to look into is inositol. It noticeably boosted my mood with no effects on hppd. Everyone is different, so gradually increase dosing, if you do try it.
  17. Prozac made my visuals worse, but made my anxiety spike to levels i've never know before or since. I'd rather take acid again than that poison.
  18. Zero evidence for this, as far as I know. The idea that it could actually undo neurological damage seems even more remote. I'm not completely dismissing the idea, it is just very, very risky and is based on anecdotal evidence from people on the internet. When I took drugs, post hppd, I would sometimes get an afterglow for a while, then crash even further down. Maybe they posted their anecdote during one of the afterglow periods.
  19. As there is currently no success stories section, I will pin this and all success stories can go here.
  20. Did anything major happen in your life to bring on the recent increase in your symptoms. Stress (losing job, someone dying etc) is usually the cause of these spikes.
  21. Thanks, did you do anything to speed up recovery (meds, changing your way of life) or did it naturally go away? Hope you recover again soon
  22. I don;t think we will ever know... So probably better to not even think about it! There are people here who have had hppd since the 60s and have shown no signs of this, so it's unlikely.
  23. That would suggest that hppd is purely psychological, which qEEG tests have shown to be false. I have tripped after getting hppd and it only made things worse.
  24. No one knows for sure... I think it is all fairly interlinked, but it is also possible to treat the issues separately. I managed to beat my depression after a few years, even though no other disorders have gone away (visuals, dp/dr, anxiety etc)... As Mythos mentioned, SSRIs can increase other hppd symptoms though, so it is wise to tread carefully with those.
  25. Great advice. I know months can feel like decades in that early stage. I vividly remember it myself... But it is essential to give yourself the best possible chance to recover... Try and remove as much stress from your life as possible. If you need to take time off, do it... If you need to lock yourself in your room, do it... Whatever helps with stress... You can quickly get your life back on track once you recover or learn to deal with this. I would also add that self blame/self loathing is great fuel for stress and anxiety. If at all possible, forgive yourself for taking risks with drugs and realise that no amount of wishing you hadn't done something will ever make it so... It's wasted energy and added stress, so just forgive yourself for doing something that millions of others do, learn and move on. (easy said than done, i know!).