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Everything posted by Jay1

  1. If you can avoid drugs, alcohol and stress for the next few months... I think you will start to see improvements.
  2. As i've discussed several times before, I use a 4 days on, 3 days off benzo treatment with 10 days off every 2-3 months to further clean the system. It has worked for 7 years now, without any sign of tolerance or withdrawal. I tweak "the recipe" a fair bit, this is my current system: Lorazepam (2.5mg) - Thursday 6pm Clonazepam (1mg) - Friday 9am Clonazepam (1mg) - Saturday 9am Lorazepam (2.5mg) - Sunday 9am
  3. mgrade, 1mg of klono is easily enough to get withdrawals.
  4. I agree, very odd behaviour... not sure if it is some misplaced joke... but mgrade, cut it out, the guy is clearly in the same boat as the rest of us.
  5. I remember a few people here who tried ibogaine when they had hppd and totally fucked up their lives. I would be very, very cautious. All of these psychedelics work on similar receptors, so have the potential to make things much worse. Out of interest, what kind of dose of LSD/Shrooms were you doing... microdoses, or enough to start to feel the effects?
  6. Interesting read. I'm still fascinated by LSD!
  7. YOU DON'T HAVE HPPD hppd is persistent and you don;t have to look for it. It's that simple. The little flecks you see when you look at the sky are white blood cells, my wife can see them if she focuses hard enough and she has never taken any drugs or SSRIs. Like her, you do not have hppd! The bottom line is that no one here can tell you that weed will be safe, no one here can tell you that alcohol will be safe. You have to make a decision on what risks you want to take... Weed carries more risks (and worsening your anxiety is FAR more likely than getting hppd)... Large amounts of alcohol carries some risk.... A few beers on a saturday night carries very little risk.... BUT, no one in the world can say it carries zero risk. Seriously though, you don't have hppd, not even mild hppd. You have an anxiety disorder, that's what you should focus on fixing.
  8. No one in the world can answer those questions regarding "no risk"... Very little is known about hppd, lsd etc... So asking definitive questions about the future is impossible. All I can say is that from anecdotal evidence from other users here (100s of other users) there is very little risk you will develop hppd after 8 days without symptoms. Unless you take more drugs so, of course there is risk if you smoke weed.
  9. You don't have hppd. hppd is continuous and you don't have to look for it... It is noticeable, even when mild.You came through unharmed... Just try to learn from this... You clearly have some issues with anxiety and overthinking that are probably not drug related... So I would totally avoid drugs, from now on... 100%, not even weed.... Just go and enjoy life
  10. I would try and deal with the depression, worry about the VS later... There are alot of meds out there that are unlikely to affect your VS. Maybe something like buspar? https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Buspirone
  11. Klonopin can cause further depression too, so be careful. I take it on a 4 days on, 3 days off basis (with 10 days off every 2-3 months)... This works out for me and i'm addiction/tolerance free after 8 years of this. For me, it is a life saver... Reduces my visuals, but more importantly, reduces my anxiety and dp/dr. But as TheMythos says, benzo addiction and withdrawal is awful, my cousin was put on valium after coming off heroin and he said it was much harder to kick and the withdrawals FAR worse! so be careful if you do start this med. You need to be very strong willed to keep up the system above.
  12. For most people, it is directly after... I have heard of people getting it some time after if they go out heavy drinking or something.
  13. If you keep searching for issues.... You will start to see the little natural oddities in your visual field that are perfectly normal. Stop freaking out... You don't have hppd... Rejoice... Enjoy life... Forget drugs
  14. It's good news.... You don't have hppd! The little points you see are probably white blood cells, perfectly natural... If you don;t look for them, you wont see them.. Simple! I would suggest that if you have this level of anxiety just from the thought of hppd, then you should never take LSD or other drugs again... and if you do feel the need to take drugs, research the possible problems before you take the drug, not after
  15. Hi Austin. I had a thought about your situation. If your doctor and parents are insistent on medication, you could try to stear them towards buspirone. It is a mild anti anxiety med that has (to my knowledge) never been a problem for anyone with hppd. I actually think it would help your anxiety and obsessive thoughts too. As you know, my first choice would be no meds for at least 3 months... But this would be a good 2nd option, imho. Much, much safer than Prozac and actually targets your specific issues (VS aside). Buy me a beer when your happiness is restored
  16. If you are in a place where you are even thinking about smoking weed, let alone taking more trips... You are very low on the ladder. You are literally risking your sanity for the rest of your life. I've had this shit for 21 years now because I didn't take it seriously when I reached your stage and carried on taking drugs (mainly lsd and mdma). My life became immeasurably worse and not a day has gone by that I haven't been in serious mental and physical pain. I had to take 3mg of Klonopin to get through my wedding day.. Is another trip worth that sort of life? Drugs are clearly not for you... Enjoy that you learnt the lessons of mushrooms and came out relatively unscathed.
  17. Hard to say, as my visuals are off the scale anyway... But it made me incredibly anxious, it made my dp/dr really bad, like I was on a full acid trip, i had suicidal thoughts and just felt terrible, mentally and physically. As you have only been sober for 5 weeks, I wouldn't even contemplate meds... Give it a few months, so many people here fully recover after 3-4 months drug free.
  18. I'd throw them in the trash... Prozac sent me crazy. If your parents need info, i could take a phone call if it would help?
  19. Also... Try to do lots of things that will stop you thinking about it all.
  20. Sounds like hppd, yes... Is this 24/7?
  21. Not sure where you are getting those figures from. From the anecdotes I've read on here... It's more like 1% who had even the slightest success... 9% who had neither a good or bad reaction and 90% who had a bad reaction.
  22. I have tried it... Did seem to boost my mood a bit, but you need alot, like 10g per day. I'm not really sure how meds or supplements solve an issue like this though. I think something like CBT or meditation would be much more helpful. I would keep any kind of med or supplement as a last resort, not a first resort.
  23. Actually, I said you have pre-hppd because you need to think about them before seeing them. Not because you only have VS. As I said on the other thread... Your best bet is something like CBT to stop the obsessive thinking.
  24. I've made this post sticky... Sounds like great work, so far. Let's all get donating! If you need anyone from the UK for the test, i'm happy to do it... My VS is more like a blizzard
  25. You are obsessing, no doubt about it. The likelihood of it getting worse, without any additional drugs, is slim to none. If you are staying away from drugs, then there are only a few things that could make your hppd worse.... SSRIs, heavy amounts of alcohol and stress. Avoid the first two and limit the last and you will not get worse. I would possibly look into CBT or something to try and get past the obsessive thoughts. and no need to apologise about anything... The forum is here to support, not judge.