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I have the flu, 39.3° celsius fever, and also full fledged HPPD. I've never gone through anything worse.

Thanks.

Keppra didn't change my symptoms at all. It only made me more suicidal and depressed.

My trip was fucked up too. First I saw myself die from above, then it felt like I was falling all the time and I got tortured by the devil thinking it was going to last in eternity. Was unconscious on the floor during this.

My friend brought "marijuana" the day I tripped. Though I have my suspicions that it was spice. Tasted like regular weed though...

Yeah, my cognition is fucked up when i try to sleep.

Dp/dr destroyed my identity. :/

The movie "Numb" from 2007 is about a guy suffering from depersonalization. http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0795439/

Are you from Sweden?

"With or without you" by U2 is my favorite song of all time:

I've got an account on http://privateislandsonline.com/. How about we all come together and buy a nice island in the caribbean?

Yep, i have a hard time reading white on black. Not the oppisite though.

Yes, experience speech problems since i got HPPD.

I'm only at home, forcing myself to get through the day. I've dropped out from school because of HPPD, since I can't even concentrate on reading a book. I'm pretty much just waiting for HPPD to go away so I can get my life back. :/

^ Exactly.

We're pretty much in the same situation then, and I feel really sorry for you. :/ I also had big plans for my life and now i'm just at home without any plans expect to recover from this. I've been forced to drop out of school because of HPPD and I hardly see friends anymore. My worst symptoms are dp/dr and cognitive dysfunction. However, I see a lot of movies and that have helped me to forget about HPPD for a minute or two, maybe you should try that as well. Unfortunately my symptoms haven't improved over time, but I continue to hope for the best. Are you still in school? Here are some tips that may help you to live with HPPD: - Stay away from drugs - Don't panic - Never look directly into a light source - Eat healthy - Get enough sleep - Keep yourself occupied, whether it's talking to a friend or checking out things on YouTube. - Don't stare at things - Don't over-analyze your symptoms - Keep in mind that no one has died from HPPD.

Welcome to the forum! Your story is actually pretty similar to mine. I also got HPPD from marijuana (probably some synthetic version though), and i've been on Seroquel for 6 months because my psychiatrist thought I had a psychosis. I've also taken Circadin (melatonin) to sleep sometimes. However, I would not recommend that you take Seroquel if you're 100% sure that you have HPPD, since anti-psychotic drugs tend to worsen HPPD symptoms. You're description of all the symptoms sounds very much like HPPD to me however. Good luck in the future, keep your head up!

My balance have also got worse since I got HPPD. I'm constantly walking into things and most of the time it feels like I can't feel my arms and legs.

I mostly get green and purple patterns while trying to sleep. If I've had a bad day I can see flashing faces as well.

Yes, that is common for dp/dr, and I have that as well. If you're going to recover is hard to tell, but don't lose hope.

1. I was 17 2. Marijuana a couple of times 3. Spice 4. No.

Most tea has caffein in it, which can make HPPD (especially anxiety) worse. However, red tea contains no caffein so I drink it all the time. No improvements in symptoms by it though.

If a brain surgery is the only things that could cure my HPPD i would do it, even though i think it's scary.

I think that the lack of feelings is caused by depersonalization or derealization. I therefore highly doubt that your dopamine receptors are destroyed. Dopamine is one of the most important hormones, it regulates many balaces and it is responsible for a great amount of functions. I see no reason to think that the receptors should be damaged.