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I do my meditation practice almost every day and have been doing so for a long time. It helps with mental focus and my hppd is much less pronounced when I'm focused. But that's me. I doubt it can do any harm. You mentioned being 40 years older. It goes by in a flash. Time is strange stuff!

Yeah, full abstinence seems as the most reasonable option. Didn't touched anything except green tea since that event happened (and I'm thinking about cutting this one too). It's just that I imagine future me, let's say 40 years older, with all the symptoms gone (maybe), and still abstaining from fear of getting HPPD back. Maybe I'll be able to get away with soft stuff like alcohol or marijuana then, dunno. Probably I shouldn't worry about that now. Anyway, I often forget that I'm not feeling normal, and it looks like I can function almost normally. Good for me that I always tried to focus on enjoying that "normal" feeling, and never did drugs often enough to rely on them, so it's not that hard to remain sober. I wonder if I can worsen my symptoms by meditation and inducing OBEs with music. Although I meditated a lot since HPPD arrival, sometimes I get extremely trippy experiences (feeling my body melt, float and expand, or feeling someone's presence), not sure how experiencing one would impact my mental health right now, and I didn't found anything about the second subject.

That's great drugs have enabled you to see the world differently but if you don't stop them now you might be that way permanently! Only you can decide what's best for yourself in the longrun but I'd urge you to at least give yourself a break for a while to see if your symptoms persist and to see how much you enjoy it. If you think life is pleasurable with 24-7 visual snow, patterns, headaches, etc., then by all means continue doing drugs. If not, then you might want to steer clear of the drug scene until you're completely healthy, or better yet, forever! You only get one life and one body. You might want to think twice before potentially damaging both forever!