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I should of joined this site 11 years ago but I forced myself to believe that I didn't have HPPD. I was living in denial and was taking a lot of Benzos to function in society. Benzodiazepines are the only medication that work for me. But after a wile I was living life in major fog and denial. Now I am confronting HPPD for the first time and trying to accept the fact that I did this to myself and there is no turning back. I can't focus or concentrate which makes it very difficult to find a job. So my question is what do you do for a living if you have severe HPPD? It seems impossible for me to think of anything that I can possibly do. I know I have a grim outlook and the glass is always half empty and that needs to stop but realistically I have no clue what to do with my life. I am applying for SS for another illness but I have been denied twice and obviously I can't mention I need it because I have HPPD. I'm sorry if there is another topic exactly like this one but I could really use some advice ASAP.

I saw dr Abraham yesterday and his visit was both a positive and negative experience. He told me it was likely that my HPPD would go away. He also said that my case was fairly serious. I have about 8 different symptoms that I described to him. However each symptom is fairly mild and I can go hours sometimes without noticing anything out of the ordinary. I got kind of depressed hearing that my case was "serious" how many symptoms do you guys have and to some extent how severe are they? Id love to compare symptoms since I was always convinced I had fairly mild HPPD and was fairly distressed to here it was "serious" and that he'd dealt with much milder cases. Thanks for any replies

^^^ damn loratemazepam? Where can I get some of that? Sounds like a super benzo.

So i guess the obvious one next is, are you still taking the substance as part of your daily routine? If you felt completely normal i guess it would be hard to just let it go.