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I had that same thought when I first heard of these “therapies” and it scared me. I am also more scared because my eldest son who is 20 recently told me that when he turned 21 he wanted to “get into mushrooms” by which I’m assuming he meant trying a therapeutic approach to his depression and anxiety and I’m really fearful of what will happen to him.

Hello, You will not get into trouble for taking drugs, at least not with the law. (At least here in the States, idk where you live or the laws there.) I got HPPD when I was 19 (I am now 45) and when I went to a bunch of doctors for my symptoms, I did not tell them I had done LSD because I thought I would go to jail. This was not the case, and I wish I had told them. You are so precious and we are all here for you. It’s not your fault that you have this condition and you are not “bad” for experimenting with drugs, tons of people do and some of us just happened to get HPPD. xoxo

Omg! That’s what I have!! My short term memory is so bad it literally scares the crap out of me. Sometimes it’s like I have a mini fugue. For instance, the other day I took my son down our main drag so he could buy some kind of cord he needed for his headphones or whatnot. Then he wanted to go to the art shop to get good quality colored pencils. He asked me to hold the computer cord while we looked at the different boxes of pencils they had. It took a bit for him to decide what he wanted. We went to the counter to pay. As we walked out the door, he said, “Do you have my computer cord?” (Good thing he asked because I had completely forgotten we’d even gone to that store.) We walked back into the art shop and I kept looking and looking at the shelves of pencils, thinking maybe I had lain it down on one, but no dice. So I went to the cashier and actually asked if someone had turned in a computer cord. What happened was that I had been holding it, set it on the counter when we paid for the pencils, and immediately forgot the whole computer store trip/me holding onto the cable thing had ever even happened. It was just a blank spot from the time we left the computer store. Didn’t even remember we’d gone in there first. The other scary thing is that I have loved to read since I was a little girl. I had almost an eidetic memory when I was young. At any rate, my memory is so bad I hesitate checking out books by authors I like, because I have no idea if I’ve read the book or not. Then I will crack it open and think, oh yeah, I did read it because some scenes are familiar to me and I kind of remember the gist. All of the books I read generally have a plot twist or even a double plot twist at the end. It’s so bad that even if I’ve read the book before, I have no idea how it ends and am shocked at the twist! Which I guess in one way is a bit cool (hey, I might not ever need to buy a new book again!) but mostly it scares the crap out of me ☹️