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Today the anxiety hit me really hard and I'm crying as I'm typing this. I don't want to be dramatic but this is the only place I can talk to people about this. Something reminded me how much my family doesn't understand and I don't know why they jump to conclusions. My mom constantly nags me. I know she means well, it's just really stressful. It always ends in me yelling, "I can't see!!!" And she doesn't get that.

I'm so tired of this. Only 7 months in this hellhole but it's just really getting to me.

DR and visuals have been hitting me harder. My dreams are a complete blur and the drowning feeling is growing.

Anyone know if turmeric helps? We put a lot of it in our food since I'm Afghan and just wanted to know if it helps with the healing of the brain.

Also, thinking of getting a catscan and is it worth the money? Maybe the doctors can help?

Worst part is I'm really craving coke and pills.


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I hope your OK. What are you doing in Afghan? Do you guys trip over there as well? Gotta be rough with the weather and HPPD. I feel sorry for your situation.

It sucks that our problems isn't visible on the outside, that's good for one reason but damn it's tough as you don't get recognition for it. Maybe show her some videos of HPPD and or visual snow or show her the movie "Numb" about DP/DR. Make her understand. That's really important to educate the people we love and have around us so the communcation works out.

 

Tumeric is great stuff for your brain. Don't do coke or other drugs. Try to stay away from it. Am I not aware here or since when did Afghanistan turned into a partyzone?

 

Best wishes,

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I hope your OK. What are you doing in Afghan? Do you guys trip over there as well? Gotta be rough with the weather and HPPD. I feel sorry for your situation.

It sucks that our problems isn't visible on the outside, that's good for one reason but damn it's tough as you don't get recognition for it. Maybe show her some videos of HPPD and or visual snow or show her the movie "Numb" about DP/DR. Make her understand. That's really important to educate the people we love and have around us so the communcation works out.

 

Tumeric is great stuff for your brain. Don't do coke or other drugs. Try to stay away from it. Am I not aware here or since when did Afghanistan turned into a partyzone?

 

Best wishes,

I'm not sure how to reply yet but actually I don't live in Afg, was born in the states and still live here. But thanks for your reply! I'm going to try water fasting for detox from even junk food like chips and candy and try to spoonful of turmeric a day and maybe even just have fish oils and spinach because it's mainly the visuals that bug me a ton.

As for coke, 5 months clean and craving but I'll have to do without it until the snow goes away or even forever. Just wish I didn't crave this much and actually cared about addiction recovery more than the hppd recovery so I can go back to old ways and recreational use. But I'm keeping strong, this site helps a lot. Had another panic attack tonight but I'll be fine in time. Thank you so much

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yo dude, message me if you ever wanna talk. i know this is hard. but fear is just our body's way of defence system against stuff like lions and stuff. realize that you have control over this. life is so beautiful were gonna be ok. 

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Hey, I'm doing a little better. The eyes are still annoying and some days the brain fog is really bad. But I think I'm happier. It's been a year already. Idk how you've been dealing with it for over 40 years!!

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